Autumn Leaves

I woke under the cover of darkness
Looked up into the television sky
Tonight

I wandered through the city alone this
Rain wouldn't stop, I couldn't dry my eyes
I cried

Who is the one to blame
Why is it that you never say
...when the feeling leaves
...if you're through with me

As I'm walking through the rain
Cold tears falling down my face
...like the autumn leaves
...on a windy day

I went to the edge of town
Over bright highways where the traffic was the only sound
Around

While my eyes were looking at the ground
I could see pictures of you floating all around
I didn't doubt

Who is the one to blame
Why is it that you never say
...when the feeling leaves
...if you're through with me

As I'm walking through the rain
Cold tears falling down my face
...like the autumn leaves
...on a windy day

Who is the one to blame
Why is it that you never say
...when the feeling leaves
...if you're through with me

As I'm walking through the rain
Cold tears falling down my face
...like the autumn leaves
...on a windy day

Who is the one to blame
Why is it that you never say
...when the feeling leaves
...if you're through with me

As I'm walking through the rain
Cold tears falling down my face
...like the autumn leaves
...on a windy day

Who is the one to blame
Why is it that you never say
...when the feeling leaves
...if you're through with me

As I'm walking through the rain
Cold tears falling down my face
...like the autumn leaves
...on a windy day

-October 20th 2008-
this day changed me forever, i will never be the same, the wound heals, but the scar will remain forever..and ever...and ever....

One day in the near future, she'll be gone. My fabulous grandmother and my boy's great grandmother. And we'll all look back at this picture and be thankful we had this moment in time, captured in our memories forever.

Say I love you today, if tomorrow comes, you can say it again too.....

Even when you're lost, never ever lose hope...

124 over 84.
To many, these numbers signify nothing. To me, they signified everything that I have been going through these past couple of years...which came to a head a few months ago, and culminated in my decision to prove to myself that indeed, "When there's a will, there's a way!"

..to be continued...

my boys

My rays of sunshines. My two wonderful boys. The lights of my life.
-aly-

Resolutions?

Yes. Just the one.
I resolve to learn to love myself, more.
Put me first for a change.
Nod when I agree.
Shake my head when I disagree.
Say no and stick to it.
Say yes only if I really mean it.
Somehow somewhere I will find me again.
Until then, I'm giving myself a pat on the back. ....
Aly, u've done well so far... The tail end of 08 was a total disaster but u survived. 2009....numb yes u were BUT u hung in there... Now Lo n behold it's going to b 2010. ...and ur still in one piece n smiling...two wonderful sons....a job u really enjoy...a roof over ur head......continue to count ur blessings....
God bless you Alison Yong!
Thank you and good night :)

I choose to live....

I choose to walk on water, skip in the sun, have a healthy heart and glowing skin.
I choose to let my body breathe, I choose to never deprive it of oxygen ever again.
I choose to turn my back on this addiction and never look back.
I can and I will.......

25th Oct 2009 7.51pm

............letting you go........

letting you go was probably the hardest thing i ever had to do in my life
but letting you go was what i needed to set myself free

i had to learn to live again, for me.

to learn to love myself and begin the slow journey to find my selfworth again...

...no more tears, i am tired of waiting.....i cannot wait for you forever .........
if one day you do awake, it may already be too late....

The Serenity Prayer

God
give me the strength to except the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,
and
the wisdom to know the difference.

If I could turn back time................

Id wish it to be 2000 again. The new millenium.

But if indeed I could turn back time, I wouldn't have this little human that gives me reason to live and breathe today...............

If I had to choose, would I have lived life differently...?

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

I have given it all, I have done the best I can. I have fought the good fight and now, It is time to take a bow and a step back.

God, I leave it in your hands, to strengthen my faith and guide me through life's journey from here. I was told that all that you do, you do for a reason, I still believe in you and know that you are there with Daddy, looking out for me from where all the good men go.

Maybe only time can heal me, maybe only me can heal me..........whatever it may be, as a part of me dies, a new spirit grows, I hope to be stronger and more resilient and wiser to the world.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life............a single red leave alone on granite, although cold, deep red blood still runs through my veins and I will survive.

And I hope one day I will be..............

A penny for my thoughts....?

If you needed a penny for every thought in my head. I'd be richer than Warren Buffet by now.....................