This is one of my favourite photos and will always be one photograph forever etched in my heart, moreso now than ever.

On February 13th 2006, the day my little boy Andre turned 17 months, my dearest Daddy passed away. No words can describe how I feel at this moment, it's been two weeks and yet, I still cannot grasp the fact that never again will I hear my Daddy's voice calling me, never again will he hold my hand and kiss it like he always does, never again will I be able to manja and run to him with my stories of a bad day.

And most of all, the hardest thing for me to except is the fact that I did not have a chance to say goodbye, one last goodbye. He left so suddenly without warning, now I truly understand what people mean when they wish they could turn back the clock, if only.......

Was I a good daughter? Was I a loving daughter? Did he know that I loved him so? Is he watching over me from up above?

He did not wait for Andre to call him "Kong Kong!" Andre will have a void in his life where a funny and loving Grandpa should have been. My Daddy loved him so, so much. And yet, Andre is still too young to have a lasting memory of my Dad, Grandpa Roy will only be someone in a photograph for him, someone he remembers vaguely in his subconcious maybe......

So Daddy, I have no way of speaking to you except here and every moment and every night when I pray that you are now at peace, no more suffering from dialysis, no more worries. Just rest in peace and watch over us from above.

Know that we love you with all our hearts and we miss you a lot. And I hope that someday we will meet again...till then.....I love you Daddy, I always will.

should I look?

should I look?
Originally uploaded by inveigle.

Dad said to use a mirror on my foot.....um.....can't do that while I'm on a high chair!

what should I do, Lemme think......maybe glance at um legs again stealthily....Is she too old for me.....neeh......what matters is she got em good pair of legs......woo hoo!

My 1st Trip to McD's

My 1st Trip to McD's
Originally uploaded by inveigle.

Yay I yam one i yam one......lalalalalala 13th September.......

September baby

September baby
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Dear Auntie Grace and Auntie Gigi,

Thanks a million and one hundred and eighty eight times for the money for my birthday. It sure helps Da and Mama to buy my diapers and food, diapers of which I use about 5 to 6 pieces a day (and of course because I like to torture my folks, I can only use mamypoko....the rest of the inferior diaper brands my bum bum shake is allergic to!) And as for food, I need a substantial amount of it it coz i polish off quite a bit of it daily......., I am now with the new nickname of "Kinetic Boy" or "Protest Lim" depending on the mood I am in, my Ma and Da rename me often accordingly....

So thats all for now, do take care and please put on lots of moisturizer auntie Gigi and auntie Grace, coz one of you is in a very hot desertlike place and the other is in a very cold fridge kinda place...

with lots of kisses to Russel, Georgia, Unc Bill and Unc Alfred and doggy Roscoe.

Andre aka Kinetic aka Protest Lim...

September

Do you sometimes feel this way when at work? Um...I do! (Uh....except I do not seem to own that particular eye catching amount of cleavage.....by far)

Unclear as tho' blindfolded on whats happening, expected to do the job with hands bound.....straddled on a chair with no option but to brave it....

It is a difficult situation to be asked to do something you don't really like, no matter if you are good at it or not, because being good or bad at something is so subjective to every individual's opinion.....yes?

Hence once again you come to a crossroad in life, to stay and make it happen or go and search again for that elusive destiny...confusion, demoralized......maybe a little dissappointed too.........

Ah......but then what is life without it's trials and tribulations..

Cheeky as can be.....

Cheeky as can be.....
Originally uploaded by inveigle.

Hi Grandma/Grandpa and Aunt Grace/Gigi,

This is me picture taken 2 days ago, thought of just updating you on what I'm getting up to, well....I can crawl commando style on my stomach.

I can crawl on my knees for all of three moves, I can get on my hands and feet and sit back down again!

I pull myself up from whatever I can get my hands on.....shelf, couch, Daddy's ears.......

So this is me.....August 2005. Miss all of you and love you lots.

Andre

Love of my Life...

Hypnotic....
Originally uploaded by inveigle.

This little boy, he occupies my every thought, he is in my heart and mind every moment I am awake...the joy of having a child of your own....it's something no one can explain, and nothing you will ever begin to understand until you experience it yourself....ah....but only when you are ready........

The song in my heart........it sings about a little squinty boy with a determined mouth...hynotizing his dad to buy him a motorized bike......

some days are just yucks!

Had an awful time at work last Friday, took me two days to recover from the trauma to sit down and write about it......man it was yucks!

Being human though, of course we all go around hunting for a scapegoat to blame, but you know something, I do believe that the fault lies in each and every one of us, and not just one person, I learnt some very important things to remember while poring through some books, don't critisize, condemn or complain.....talk about your own mistakes before crtisizing another person.....

I believe that this helps in all areas of our lives, do I remember the blunders I made when I first started out...oh yes! do i remember the stupid questions I used to ask...oh yes!....hence I just wish everyone would just take some bloody timeout to remember how it used to be ......and be more reasonable, more understanding and wiser....to someone new, someone fresh, someone eager to learn but still wet behind the ears........the world would be a much better place......

alas...if only........

absolutely delicious fried rice...

Many years ago I used to frequent this cafe called Backofen in Ampang Point, run by a wonderful couple, the lady named Nora, made this absolutely to die for Fried Rice served with some heavenly Sambal Belachan.

Alas, the cafe is not there anymore and I have been having sleepness nights and salivating days dreaming about the fried rice ...

Does anyone have any idea where they disappeared to?? The Viennese Coffee was also scrumptious.......

I need to get my fried rice fix.......so bad! Help......

Ruminations of an unsound mind...

Tired.....Confused....Lost! Unsure.......next step? what do I want to do with my life? Sigh.....just at a point when I think I want to make a go to make it work great, up pops a couple of job offers that gets me thinking again about ......what else....my life.....

How can you be sure about what you do ....when will you ever know it's the right vocation.........or will I be bent at 72 and then it dawns on me? Man, That'll be a little late to realize I should have been selling kaoy teow at the pasar malam and would have been happier than having slogged in an unforgiving industry for decades.

But you know what, I do love what I do, and I suppose in every work place you will face frustrations with others as others would feel frustrations with you.......but jeez...I wish that someone, somewhere would just start a global work system that every bloody company has to follow.......some kinda structure that works 85% of the time. Maybe that would help certain "parties" get their act together.

I AM NOT PERFECT! I make my fair share of boo boos and blunders. But heck, I try not to do that every single day, what is it about certain departments that just forget to let a thought process pass through their brains before putting it down on paper AND THEN GETTING some other poor souls to execute it???!!!

Do they not know that it would be

A) Impossible to carry outcertain things in too short a time period = Disaster
B) Unclear Briefs about Execution = Disaster
C) Work Overload and Deadlines one day after another = Disaster
D) Neglecting to follow up on things = Disaster


See, I am angry.......angry at myself. I should have checked again and again and again instead of thinking, they are old enough to know what they are doing and they will know the urgency of the matter not to take it lightly.........

Oh Well Guess What ...all above = Disaster!

So, let's see what Monday the 25th of July brings then.......

Ruminations.......my ponderings.....vents.......or it could also be a cow chewing it's cud.......you be the judge of that.....

peek-a-boo!

horsin' around wif ma dad 4
Originally uploaded by inveigle.

Ma daddy playing peek-a-boo wif mummy....or is it wif the camera....ummm....

andre lim